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So I drank a little too much last night. You would have been proud of me, I chugged three beers in a row!!

Yeah I know it's not that much but I'm a lightweight. Also, I was tired, and a little too relaxed. I went to go grab a pack of smokes off the top of my fridge last night and the next thing I remember I was on the floor! :D

I must have hit every kitchen drawer on the way down because I have a few small bumps and quite the headache. I remember opening my eyes and it took me 5 minutes to register where I was...

"Where am I? Am I on the floor? Why am I on the floor? This is interesting. Did I pass out? This would have been embarrassing if everyone was awake. You should get up now Kari."

And then I had a smoke and went to bed.

ow. :(

My last day at Surface Collective was today. The company definately taught me a lot and I'm super happy I went :)

Also, life sucks right now:
A) Because it's snowing.
B) Because it's cold.
C) Because our economy is in crisis.
D) Because there's a lull in business right now and little to no ppl are hiring.
E) Because I have no TV.
F) Because I have no money.
F) Because the life of an artist is never easy.
and last but not least...
G) Because my best friend bellipotens is not happy.

My mission is to find Ultimate Happytime Land. When I get there I'll send an invite of some kind to all of you. But especially you bellipotens.


<3

I need some form of inspiration to get me started on some pieces I could put into a portfolio. I'll take anything, even if it's in the form of an inanimate object.

February 20th, 2009
Attn: Society
To Whom it May Concern,

The artist in me wants to take you by the throat and throttle you until all of your money and despair falls out of your pants. Then, to add some irony, I would take that money and buy many, many good things for you to make you feel balanced. The despair would either get swept under a rug, or snail-mailed to someone who could refurbish it into happiness.

The logic in me says that you wouldn't ever want that. That act doesn't make any sense.

I would like to lodge a formal complaint against whoever put us all up to this. All of a sudden we thought that a perfect lifestyle is measured in a form that eventually becomes a trend. Those who propel themselves against that current of thinking and action know only that there is a reason why. Somehow, we've even commercialized those people who claim to know what the reason is.

Unfortunately those who don't "know" what it is, are faced with an emotional, neverending struggle to believe that the reason they keep on trucking is just there. Something thats within our grasp, anything! Except there are millions, upon millions of ways to harness what it is that you want. Why don't you just give up? If you can't get it there's probably a reason. What's the point in thinking so if there is just going to be people and shit that keep you cemented to where you DON'T want to be. Society can blame itself too. There always seems to be at least one asshole that wants your glory, in whatever form that asshole may appear. Get your head out of your ass, there's no such thing as true happiness.

Dammit.

I can't hear that anymore. What strength is known to exist in an individual soul, is something that can't be stopped. Whether you believe in souls or not, it's nevertheless a matter of quality of life. Emotion, can string you pretty high up, and can crush you with a ton of weight but it will never kill you unless you LET it. It can almost be viral, and its the only ailment that can affect the extremity of your health by soley depending on what your heart is saying. Not what we eat or do to our physical bodies.

Thats not a happy thing to say about it of course. Emotion is also beautiful. It is what makes us extraordinary creatures and for that, we have to treat it as our own deity. It will give us strength to do what we need and want, and it will be the shadow that chases us day by day. But the biggest thing it does for us, is give us some insight on a truth.

Since emotion tips the scale on action, it's a good thing to know that what we feel and think are not necessarily separate. What we feel formulates our thought processes, our morals, and our beliefs, the things that propel our action. And in the circle of life, as we grow it is action that formulates what we feel. Since the two work closely together, and since this is something everyone can figure out, it's no secret that when you act it's clear about what you feel.

Humans are like books, we can either have a terrible storyline with an overdeveloped character, or an underdeveloped character with an amazing storyline. We can have big print or small print. Pictures or complete text. Some of us even have indexes, or are walking encyclopedias.

The point is, is that we're complicated, but it's simple emotion that tells us whats simple. And thats something everyone has in common. Another known fact is what we want, will always have an effect what other people recieve themselves.

If the guy that implemented this bullshit idea we've been living off of still works with you society, I suggest you fire him. He's a menace. Fire him and then read a book. Preferably your own. Maybe then you'll get your revolution.


-K

Yes. There's even a possibility that quantum physics works into it somehow. This is so cliche, but I know that one of my past lives had something to do with being a shaman of a particular tribe in North America, supposedly before the white man landed here. Naturally shamans were good with herbs and everything that was produced from the earth. For my whole life and this day in age, one of my personality traits has always been having the utmost respect for nature, and what it produces. I don't make medicine or anything, but I feel at peace when I'm clustered in a forest somewhere, or by the ocean. Also, I like organic stuff.

Frankly whether you believe in it or not, studying your past life is no more than an interest these days. Its said that if you do, you unlock or develop certain personality traits and skills subconciously.

I love having the freedom to sit in a comfy chair, surf the net, smoke, eat, and watch TV at the same time. All Hail Technology!!!

So I was sleeping at 9am this morning, and while in a state of half sleep I heard the buzzer going. It took me a while to compute the fact it was the buzzer, so I took a short while to answer it. When I finally ran downstairs and picked it up....*cue scary music*...no one was there!!!!!!

It's just really bugging me cuz I don't know who could have buzzed at 9am. Everyone I know is working, and people who aren't working think I'M working today.

I have a buzzer stalker >.>


Also, I am really tired. I shouldn't have stayed up so late but w/e. I never know really what to do on my days off, and this time I know I do actually have stuff to do. Ryans coming over soon which means I should really put a shirt on. Dammit Ryan.

This week at work, I have to prep for a trade show, and then attend one or possibly two. bellipotens gave me a job lead to a theatre in Richmond helping with Marketing. I just don't know what I could provide as a writing sample :S

Now I'm worried about my future.

Thats really not the subject of this entry. I'm just currently watching it. I love shows like this because they mix facts with fiction to make it magical :D

This episode is sad because someone dies unfortunately and a secret is revealed to Dean. And now that I think about it, Dean looks really familiar. One day I hope to work on this show, but i'm not in the union.

Went to work today. I cleaned an office. Apparently people who work in an office don't know how to wash dishes. Or where to keep them for that matter. I found a dirty spoon in a toolbox. bellipotens and I are not only watching Supernatural together, but we're also having a nice glass of wine and we're about to smoke a joint. YAY!:D

Living with her is awesome. One day we'll have a kickass site that will do something kickass. You'll all see.


-K

My tummy hurts. 


It's sunday and Im going to work.   It's my lucky day tho, I don't get paid overtime and today I'm working two hours over what I should be working.  Also, I have a previous engagement.

I'm thinking when I get home I'm gonna start to unpack some boxes.  I have a lot of little shit that you wouldn't think to bring to your new place.  I guess I didn't purge properly. 

I am also going to install Cs3.  EXCITEMENT!

I remember when I used to have my old account. At the time I did barely anything with it but now, who knows? I'm up way too late but I'm neurotic about the way my LJ looks. Thank you to rubytears for the layout, it is nice :D

Hopefully one day I can relearn to do my own layouts so I can make my own. I will one day

I'm so tired.........totally setting LJ to my homepage.

-K